So, I just finished my two weeks of wonderful happiness with my boyfriend. He came over the pond for a nice long stay and I was in an utterly blissful state for two whole weeks. I don't think we've ever spent that long with just the two of us together. As I said, we met at a summer camp and there isn't much time for cuddling when you're running after 8 year olds all day long. It was great though. It really cemented my feelings for him.
He's insecure though because it was during this hiatus last year that I broke up with him. I think he believes me when I say that I'm not going to do that again and there is nothing in this world that would make me not want to be with him, but I think he's still a little scared. To be honest, I'm scared too. I have a lot of guilt about breaking up with him, even though I know that it was the right decision. I mean, if I hadn't broken up with him last year, I don't think we would be together right now. Everything happens for a reason and I definitely believe that I broke up with him so that I could become capable of having the kind of relationship we have now -- one where I absolutely do not question my feelings for him. I know that I want to be with him and that's that.
Saying goodbye was awful. I don't get to see him for 2 months. I'll be going over for New Year's to meet his family and friends. I think that once we hit that milestone, doubts and insecurities will fade away. We just need to get through these 2 months and it'll be easier. I can only hope that they go by quickly.
Not too much else to say. He's consumed my life for the past 2 weeks, so not too much else has happened.
"Built to last till time itself falls tumbling from the wall.
Built to last till sunshine fails and darkness moves on all.
Built to last while years roll past like cloudscapes in the sky.
Show me something built to last, or something built to try."
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